Daily problem, Daily Solution

 it's getting colder everyday and the desire in me to go out is also fading away. each day I plan for an event, a solo short but sweet hike on a nearest mountain. keep thinking to these tasks overwhelms me and therefore I stop doing anything useful and will get  busy to games or YouTube. at best I put on some music and workout for some 1-2 minutes. looking and finding or making something to eat and this is how day goes. in the meantime I try to grow 3 lemon seeds and some mushroom spores directly into the soil which was rinsed with boiled water and today I feed the pot with some sugar water solution.

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Mi.

I finally moved my skinny ass, stood up, got ready and went out on a hike in a remote place out of the city. most of the ride was on the bus or in a crowded, moist and damp with no fresh air. I wanted to explore a new place but I could go to a better place. in any case, there was moments that I enjoyed and recorded on a video and took some pictures as well. despite all of this movements I hadn't find a craving for food. 

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Do.

How to have a different life among others

 I had this title for quite a while and I opened it today after years to see it's just empty.

but nevertheless, it fits the purpose. to write is to remember, and that is enough to my faded mind; whenever I come back (out of shame or guilt for my dull-witted years in my youth) I find out minor details that would be shocking for me or even today's listener, when they hear the prices in those days or how things were, or how things weren't as good as they think and that they always had an excuse to live poorly and badly even though they were wealthy enough to feed some other strange mouthes out of pride and looking good instead of the evil things they did in the past. it's a cycle and we were about to do the same for the family but we weren't there. we rarely would attend these meetings and eventually every one of us got scattered somewhere in the world. now what is left is making good memories and write them down beside the bad ones as none of them will be removed from the mind of existence. it will relive again and again in different minds and manifest itself in the world.

anyway, i'm getting sidetracked here. these days I am trying hard to have a good time and do meaningful things. boiled some water and poured over a straw medium to clean it for growing mycelium in them.

bought some fruits and nuts, cashews, and currants are my favorites. sunflower and pumpkin seeds are also something I nibble on these days. Bananas and coconuts are always remind me of baboons and chimpanzees.

Who am I?

St. Jerome, by Jacopo Da Ponte known as Bassano, 1560 about, 16th Century

Firstly let us talk a bit about consciousness.

are you fully aware of yourself? or you're more out there and thinking constantly about anything and everything but really about yourself?

The Gateway project made me think about something and that is being aware of yourself. Psychiatrists or professionals in the field may haven't put much effort into this. 

"Know thyself" is the translated statement from the Temple of Apollo in Greece. I think maybe even Humans back then knew the truth and the secret which is hidden in plain-sight in our bodies.

Seeing the world as waves, frequencies, and vibrations.

this thinking suddenly changed my view about how things really work, how I should really feel, and how I should really face my fears. don't think of them as fearful things that will happen or going to happen, instead resonate with life. I was always an avid pursuer of learning and getting ready for survival so I can not just be alive but flourish as well.

Which is it? I don't know my body? my mind is locked up in my brain and in my body and that is the cause for disturbance and bad bodily feelings that I always crave to feel normal and use substances in order to feel that sense of contentment which I can almost never get it from anything? nothing, literally nothing is making me feel warm inside, loved, cherished or satisfied. most part of it though is clear and I have no doubt why is it like that. because being in a sick and toxic society, community, groups of people can affect you, your thinking, your thoughts, your personality, your goals, your concerns and everything else in between. the solution for me was a half-ass attempt to entertain myself, pick several hobbies that I don't put too much effort in any of them. but why is that? why instead of being busy with life, we are so self-conscious about everything and have to analyze everything. of course, for finding the best solution to a prosperous life maybe.

P.S.: Lucid dreaming and becoming master at it can really make a difference on how we perceive ourselves and the reality that surrounded us.

Invisible People

 There are certain people that will come into the circle of invisible people all the time.

They might not be invisible at first, they might not be invisible to certain people but they eventually feel that they are being discarded, neglected or left careless.

Although this phenomenon happens all the time and it may seem there is no running away from it, but there are definitely some measures that can take you to get out of that circle and become someone you want to be, and appreciate your existence in the world. This will lead to being hopeful, being happy and also set you a worthy goal.

I thought to myself for a long time; How can I be more Happy?

And I came up with an idea which helps both the neglected people and also people in the need of other people's assistance.

I wanted to open a community, which I myself needed a lot and can feel the lack of its existence already in my life, and thought to myself there might be other people who felt like this. other people who wants to help and get help from members of the community.

When you can live sustainable with growing your own food, your own electricity and other needs by yourself without the help of the government and their rulings, why can't you get help from individuals and help them in return as well?

I am not yet familiar with websites or communities which serves this kinds of services to others so I just start writing in here. If someone see and reads this, they can join up. let people know what you can do, tell people what do you want from them? or how They can help you in the way you want.

so for a quick start: I can teach in many areas from gardening, Human Brain, behavioral sciences, human body and how it works. what things to eat. what things to eat and enjoy life. how to be sustainable and how to survive with less or no money at all.  

This list has to be update in the future. I am Lazy therefore I don't write all the description to my personality or areas I know what I am talking about.

I hope to see some mature people in here and connect with them.

Godspeed (above the speeding limit)