the question: what is the meaning of my life?
how hard I am thinking, it gets harder to understand. should I workout? should I read more? should I do what? 10 days until my departure and I think I have already maxed out my stay at this hotel. they announced that after 29th of this month, they will not accept people for longer stays. what does it mean?
they just don't want us to be around. why? no idea. maybe those who stay long consume more resources which is not ideal for the business, who knows, except the managerial people? but it doesn't concern me anymore because I am leaving here sooner than that date. I leave on 25th of this month to the destination Norway. and after that? to some place else more residential and maybe over there I can find a place for myself to be in. some place that I can establish a life, a house I hope. with real food and condiments. who knew I am gonna go there to find life? I always knew or wanted to, be in a different place than I could ever imagined but not like this. I wouldn't imagine something this complex. I like it though, don't get me wrong. I will be in a place where no one not even myself could ever imagine to be in.
i've come a long way to be in this situation. and to be honest, I am surprised and shocked that everything is moving so fast. i was seeing myself as a nomad but this is another premium version of that idea. who thought that so quickly i'd be traveling to Europe and that's not even the last destination of my trip. and I will travel to some other place after that.
I am listening to The Road by Cormac McCarthy and I can tell that these small gestures, listening to books, or sometimes watching some movies can put me in a better mood. and the mood is nothing more than being able to not always think about bad stuff but being able to see the good the in the world. not saying there's this and there's that, not arguing on that, just saying it all depends on myself to find good in things even in bad things or find bad in good things, and it all depends on our mood, blood sugar, and the state of mind at a certain moment. that's it and nothing really more than that. you can be in the worst places possible but still able to find something to not feel the worst about yourself and the world.
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