What's intelligence? what's not?

and intelligence is information, information is connection, connection makes people find each other and become one or two or another commune. there's a cycle going on, not run by governments as much as they love to be in control of what's happening and have the fate of the people in their hands and laugh like an Evil villain while their face is shadowed behind them over the walls. but if you see if from god-view or  hawk-eye view you see that people give out intelligence while getting intelligence themselves. there is a give and take kind of situation which at the end of course the people will pay the highest price with their lives and those in power always takes all the benefits one way or another. it's like if you want to stay off-grid and don't use the electricity that comes from the government power-station, buying solar panels or generators, you still gonna buy those devices from them and you're still bound to get loan from them to pay them their own money. it's a bit complicated I know but trust me, the only thing that shouldn't happen at any costs is to stop being effective. stop thinking that your actions won't matter because you're one. be sure that other ones will follow you and come after you. you just need to keep believing in your mean and persist on it, whatever you feel is your fate or you want to become. never stop grinding. jeez, turned out a motivational speech.

the answer to your question: everything is.

How's life over there?

 the society today, becomes more closed up than ever before. people are avoiding each other to stay out of trouble. we're in a time, where everything costs money, and people are on edge. country becomes sectioned into different power groups, and everyone wants to get something out of this, because all of them think they were the most dedicated and devoted buddies in thick and thin. old pals of the sharks want something out of all this. there are fast and hasty construction building's going on, again because that's how they can guarantee a bit of money for themselves while they're milking the lasts of the country's resources. sell it all cheap to china, who cares? sell out the soils while you're at it. oh you've been doing it for decades now? okay then, I can't think of any crimes that the government hasn't committed, and yet we swear allegiance to it to keep it safe and sound. or at least we don't think we need to do something about it. anything. we don't believe in anything now, we just want to survive another more day and that's it.

Addiction to Failure

 I am happy that now at least I don't feel lost. I don't feel if I don't belong here or there or anywhere, I must see why? why? there's no need to add drama and additional thought processes into your head and to your life, since you are precious and your time as well. this figurative snap backs to realities can move you from staticities. don't think you can't do anything, just do it and it will become something. yes I am talking about the process of starting with a notion and ending up with some actual results. we need small steps, that's how we begin, and we keep going and not stopping, because that's when success hits and you gotta be ready, i'm telling you, it's not wise to let go of opportunities like a failure addict. you need to want the ambition to grow and change and be on the move. that's the way of life. to be on the move. no matter where you are, what you do, just being on the surfboard of making something, creating something, saying something, drawing, cooking, whatever to feel the passing of the time. cause when we sleep we lose track of time and we don't know how much of reality we have missed. if we don't sleep on a schedule and mix day and nights during season change. now autumn is here and I absorb any beam of light that comes through the dark cloud smoke above the city. and let the finches get some too.

we are on the verge of a war if not actively in it, which highly doubt that it's not true.

and internet in already down, everyone's panicking and saying what can we do if the internet shut down again like years ago in March 2017. colleagues are thinking about migrating together to a neighboring country until the war ends and internet comes back up again. seriously considering this absurd thought which I thought is only my problem and my life is in ruins and shambles because of the absolute shitty situation of water, electricity, internet, and all the expenses that became quadrupled. and the severity of living near family members. oh god, my brain got deformed because of my headaches or whatever that happened to me during my time living with this family. that my mind blocked the memory from remembering it again. but it's deformed, some parts are steep and some parts are hill like.
all my life i lived a miserable life but i did what I could do atm, to make things better, and I did make it better but I couldn't hold on to it. I let it slip and this is the case of Addiction to failure that I have to conquer.